I think I should write a blog entry but I just don’t know what to write about. Derick didn’t call yesterday, and for some reason, I couldn’t bring myself to go to bed. As if the day isn’t complete without talking to him and praying with him. I finally made my way to my bedroom at about 11pm. I wasn’t even doing anything constructive, just missing Derick and playing around on Facebook. 5am came awefully early this morning, especially when Brody woke up at 12:30 and wanted to eat, and then Kendra’s friend Erika, who spent the night last night, had to leave at 4:30 this morning to go to work. Hearing the door openning and shutting woke me again. This morning I am wiped out!
I think maybe its harder for me to be motivated to post a blog entry because Derick isn’t reading it so much anymore. He doesn’t have internet access so readily available at his new location like he did in Cuba. So, Skype is out of the question. Phone calls and snail mail are the preferred methods of communication. Its hard on the kids, not seeing him while they talk. I suppose, though, that this will help me to remember everything that has happened while he is away. So that I can look back and see how God has taken care of my family whether Derick is here or overseas. Eventually my kids will be able to see it also.
Today I have high ambitions of get all of my Christmas decorations put away. Well… almost all of them. I think I am going to start a new trend. I’m gonna leave the lights on my house until Valentine’s Day. One month is just not long enough to enjoy all the work that it takes to get the lights on the house. And I didn’t get them up over Thanksgiving weekend. So, really, they have only been on display for 3 weeks. Besides, I have white lights and red bows. That just screams Valentine’s Day. If I find out that Derick will be home by then end of February, I may leave them up til he gets here. They are so beautiful. They give me comfort. I don’t know why. I love coming home at night and having that little bit of light on the front of my house. I love seeing the lights through the blinds as I am putting the kids to bed. Christmas lights just have a soothing aspect to them. When everything else about this holiday season seemed chaotic and out of control, my Christmas lights kept reminding me that there is still beauty in the chaos. Besides, there is a foot of snow on the ground out there. I’m not about to go tromping through the snow to remove my little bit of Christmas cheer.
Today I am also hoping to go outside to play in the snow with the kids. They all received snowpants and boots for Christmas and, like I just mentioned, there is a foot of snow on the ground. Tomorrow its supposed to be above freezing. They are predicting snow, but I’m not sure how its gonna snow if its not freezing outside. I’m not the weatherman, I guess. So, today the goal is to get Brody in bed for a good nap and get outside to play. It will probably take me just as long to get all of us dressed as we will actually spend outside. I have snowpants, too… did I mention that? Derick and I got new coats and snowpants about 3 years ago when we were delivering papers. Very expensive but definitely money well spent! When I see that the current temperature outside is a balmy 3 degrees (its 6:30am), I thank God that I am in my pajamas, sitting in my toasty living room, blogging about snow, instead of tromping through it, delivering newspapers! (They have to be delivered by 5:30am) I’d have to be pretty desperate to do that job again!
Derick said he went to the beach last weekend. Must be rough! Even though I love my Christmas lights poking out through the snow, I would love to be laying on a tropical island beach with my true love, soaking up the sun. He thought they would be going back this weekend too, for New Years. Wow! What a way to bring in the new year! I’m so jealous! Not jealous as in, “Can I trade places with you?” but jealous like, “I wish I were with you!” I don’t really want to go to the beach unless Derick can go with me. When I talked to him Sunday night, he said we should go to one of those all-inclusive resorts for a second honeymoon. That sounds great to me!
Derick, if you read this before I get to talk to you again, I love you and I miss you like crazy! We’re on the downhill slope now. (Hopefully!) Stay safe and hurry home!